"The Paradigm"
This is my very first single released on April 15, 2022 (my daddy's birthday)! Although this is my first single, this is not the first song that I wrote (I still haven't released that one yet :-/ ). Nevertheless, I felt compelled to make this song my first release.
"Am I who you thought I was gonna be, or did I turn out to be something totally differently?" is the first line of "The Paradigm". This line came to me as a thought while I was changing a mannequin at my visual merchandising job in Wayne, NJ.
It was a question that I posed in response to some people’s opinions as to what they think I should be doing with my life and my art. I then responded to the rhetorical question with the next lines: “Well it’s a good thing, I guess, ‘cause I didn’t try to impress you. That would’ve only taken me to destination: misery”.
It was a moment that I was having where I realized that my job was to walk on the path that was created for me and with that, that won’t look like anyone else’s, and that’s more than okay.
It even dawned on me that I could’ve taken some paths that I really thought were good for me, but in hindsight, I would’ve been absolutely miserable.
Misery does not look good on me.
As I began to realize the struggle was about my perception, others' views, and how God saw me, all I wanted to do was get a hold of freedom. I then began to relfect on the true meaning of freedom. What is the example of moving in liberty? God. To me, the truest form of freedom is God. He is the paradigm of true liberty and “I can’t lose my mind trying to fit in to what you say I should be”. The paradigm for my life will also be to be free.